My thoughts are like a cannon, fired with reckless abandon
Standing in a sandpit, waiting for my sight to vanish
If I'm blinded I can't see the consequences of my actions
In the sandpit seeing red, I feel like I'm a martian
I'm alien in comparison to all these other beings
So out of touch it's embarrassing, I feel like I'm dreaming
Whispers from my distant memories are dissonant symphonies
I feel as out of place as nymphomaniacs with the ministry
Rationality is out the window like a puppy's head ya see
Tongue stuck out like raspberry, ignoring my pedigree
Want to get a med degree, want to feel true ecstasy
Can those two things coexist? That's not a question meant for
me
Hook:
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
Feel better then relapse
Steel feathers filling' his pillow, pain present even when he naps
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
Feel better then relapse
Steel feathers filling' his pillow, pain prison even when he naps
Verse 2:
I think I'm trapped in a nightmare,where scary sights appear
quite fair
Because beauty is a ruse disguising, inner bruises and lies
here
I pray your the exception as everything else just preys upon me
Predated by childhood demons, feast off my mind like zombies
Tearing away at my sanity, picking away like my therapist
I'm ready to self-destruct like a kamikaze or a terrorist
A Paris Eiffel Tower- like rifle's power to my frontal lobe
Maybe doing so will make me less of a mental anthrophobe
Use a shotgun on my cranium and make my family's snot run
You tell me think of those who care, yet you forget that I've got
none
I'm pretty sure your thoughts of me amount to pure pity
I don't know how but no one else is sure my life's shitty
Hook:
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
Feel better then relapse
Steel feathers filling' his pillow, pain present even when he naps
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
Feel better then relapse
Steel feathers filling' his pillow, pain prison even when he naps
Bridge: Azure the Paradox
Look, I been caged up
I been fazed up
Done playing bruh
Free my name bruh
We got chains, yuh
Never slaves, yuh
I been caged up
I done played enough
Verse 3: Azure The Paradox
Who you talking to?
Tell me something, who you walking to?
Niggas saying they been my dog
but who the fuck is your barking to?
Niggas never had common sense
they change up with no thought about it
See the homies in my inner circle
if you been a square, you can walk up out it
Day ones say "trust me"
I swear they aint saying nothing
Thinking I should be lucky
But my past been troubling
Had a problem since a young man
Got back-stabbed in a school room
Got beat just for being different
Been caged inside too
Hide shit from my close homies
Thinking that nobody know me
People say I should open up
But I been scared, I might be folding
Everyday I been token
outsider inside shit
Paranoid of past shit
So nobody remind me
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
thinking I might relapse
Just facts, been checked
hoping I dont need that
uh, Lately I been on wave
Trying hard not to crash
Thinking I'm surfing today
and hoping I don't make it back
credits
from Worth Of My Birth,
released March 14, 2018
Written and Performed by Mantis the Miasma & Azure the Paradox
Mixed and Mastered by Azure the Paradox: @azuretheparadox
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