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1. |
Con(tra)ception
01:53
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This is not the shit to dance around and go get lit to
This the shit for laying down in pain when feelings hit you
This the tape you play when no one fucking understands
This the shit you won't get if you got a hundred bands
No bands, just pop pills, no xans, and fuse it with some booze
I've been tryna die in silence, fuck making the news
Robin, Kurt, and me, our heads share dread, but not our hair
Thoughts locked in, they're never leaving, trapped in the despair
Got no bitches, nihilism is my only mistress/
My words act as blocks and torches, build and burning bridges
Heart is feeling frigid, and I think my stomach's missing
Put thoughts in a song because in person no one listens
Say this shit is in my mind, say i should be happier
Say you know the feeling but I feel like you're just yappin' here
Everyone got problems, but our lives won't be the same
Glad you're living good but your life ain't gon' ease my pain
Know that you're just tryna help, but I'm not lying to myself
Faking confidence until it's real isn't my kinda health
Every time I say why I ain't happy and I can't be
I can see the face of apathy, no one can stand me
I'm not tryna push people away, just stating feelings
Some of those are skeptical and say there ain't no healing
People give up on me since I gave up on me too so
I end up feeling more hurt and lonely than I do
Thought about a fake ID so I could get some vodka shots
Just to slow my brain down since my scattered thoughts like polka dots
Tryna be adult and fix my problems without chemicals
Shits hard to resist, I'm tryna stick to academics though
Since my youngest days I've contemplated what I'm worth
If I deserve life and why my family seems cursed
Everyone hates one another, all I hear is accusations
Grandma, sister, mom,and dad all call each other Satan
My dad told me mom lied about the pill then she got pregnant
Just so my dad had reason to stay instead of leave her
My conceptions based around my moms false contraception
So really all i'm worth is a bargaining chip breathing
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My thoughts are like a cannon, fired with reckless abandon
Standing in a sandpit, waiting for my sight to vanish
If I'm blinded I can't see the consequences of my actions
In the sandpit seeing red, I feel like I'm a martian
I'm alien in comparison to all these other beings
So out of touch it's embarrassing, I feel like I'm dreaming
Whispers from my distant memories are dissonant symphonies
I feel as out of place as nymphomaniacs with the ministry
Rationality is out the window like a puppy's head ya see
Tongue stuck out like raspberry, ignoring my pedigree
Want to get a med degree, want to feel true ecstasy
Can those two things coexist? That's not a question meant for
me
Hook:
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
Feel better then relapse
Steel feathers filling' his pillow, pain present even when he naps
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
Feel better then relapse
Steel feathers filling' his pillow, pain prison even when he naps
Verse 2:
I think I'm trapped in a nightmare,where scary sights appear
quite fair
Because beauty is a ruse disguising, inner bruises and lies
here
I pray your the exception as everything else just preys upon me
Predated by childhood demons, feast off my mind like zombies
Tearing away at my sanity, picking away like my therapist
I'm ready to self-destruct like a kamikaze or a terrorist
A Paris Eiffel Tower- like rifle's power to my frontal lobe
Maybe doing so will make me less of a mental anthrophobe
Use a shotgun on my cranium and make my family's snot run
You tell me think of those who care, yet you forget that I've got
none
I'm pretty sure your thoughts of me amount to pure pity
I don't know how but no one else is sure my life's shitty
Hook:
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
Feel better then relapse
Steel feathers filling' his pillow, pain present even when he naps
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
Feel better then relapse
Steel feathers filling' his pillow, pain prison even when he naps
Bridge: Azure the Paradox
Look, I been caged up
I been fazed up
Done playing bruh
Free my name bruh
We got chains, yuh
Never slaves, yuh
I been caged up
I done played enough
Verse 3: Azure The Paradox
Who you talking to?
Tell me something, who you walking to?
Niggas saying they been my dog
but who the fuck is your barking to?
Niggas never had common sense
they change up with no thought about it
See the homies in my inner circle
if you been a square, you can walk up out it
Day ones say "trust me"
I swear they aint saying nothing
Thinking I should be lucky
But my past been troubling
Had a problem since a young man
Got back-stabbed in a school room
Got beat just for being different
Been caged inside too
Hide shit from my close homies
Thinking that nobody know me
People say I should open up
But I been scared, I might be folding
Everyday I been token
outsider inside shit
Paranoid of past shit
So nobody remind me
Caged, trapped, brain snapped
thinking I might relapse
Just facts, been checked
hoping I dont need that
uh, Lately I been on wave
Trying hard not to crash
Thinking I'm surfing today
and hoping I don't make it back
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3. |
Harmed & Cancerous
06:03
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Verse 1:
I don't have friends, I have people that put up with me/
They sit there all annoyed because they're reading my sad fuckery
Dealing with me out of pity, they don't feel a thing
I get it, even the king wants to kill the king
Shit, I asked that guy for a verse
We were talking 'bout it then he stopped, I guess thats my curse
'Cause when it comes to shit like that I know he's not first
Keeps on happening, but its never gets easy, gets worse
This is barely business to me, I want some friends
But before I even start it seems I reach a dead end
I make music and ask questions, guess that i'm a leech
And my messages incessant because they don't ever speak
I'm just tryna learn, form bonds, get some critique
I don't really need shit from you, just be real and it's peachy
I don't need a feature, in fact I've rarely asked
So you think I'm tryna use you? get your head out your ass
I'm just being real not tryna put these guys on blast
Because it is what it is, maybe karma for my past
Since when I was a kid I treated people like nothing
But before that point most did the same to me so I'm buggin'
I know you can be busy and that we ain't super close
But I still hate feeling like I'm just something to be disposed
Illustrates to me that you just think you're the illest
And I'm a pesky beggar with no money or feelings
I'm not tryna paint any of these guys as villians
And I'm no comic hero, I just laugh when my pills in
Balancing my chemicals, doc gave me prescriptions
Told him I think all affection for me is a fiction
I'm a practiced master of the art of self destruction
I use blood, cash, sweat, and tears on these productions
All I ask for is advice and make some conversation
Guess that's too far so I lose my confidence and patience
Collabs started and died, I guess its ashes to ashes
No order to this industry, it's all just lies and bashes
They tell me that I'm young and that I'm uneducated
Reading books is needed man, that's all that you're saying
No mention of my songs lyrics, doubt that you played it
Somehow those who struggle matter less when you've made it
Can't bother with their efforts when your own grind predated
And you know you needed help, yet you still leave them waiting
Can't pretend to understand why you ain't elevating
Seems you think your dreams were always meant to be fated
Just some 4 minute songs and your thoughts won't take long/
Yet you give shallow impressions like you haven't played one/
My ambition's on thin ice, no Roman Josi, this ain't hockey
I'm no pro, I don't need green, not tryna be that cocky
I just wanted some advice but life's unfair and so are humans
But I don't intend to quit, that's why the bass still boomin'
Hook x2:
Fuck being armed and dangerous, I think I'm harmed and cancerous
Verse 2:
People leaving since I was in a womb, locked in
'posed to have a twin but they made mom their coffin
Wonder if before I had a brain my instincts killed 'em
And if i took their place, how their life(story) would have built up
Kinda feel guilty, kinda feel like a felon
Feel like they'd do better in the circumstance I fell in
Feel if they were here, we'd both have better fates
Because they'd have life and I could talk instead of contemplate
Elementary had few friends, and most turned into bullies
Heart strings always feeling tension like they're part of pullies
Most the time was drifting tryna find a place to fit in
Found some spots just to get left all by myself and sitting
I remember back in 3 when kids would run away from me
Say it's games and their my friends, but never really played with me
Bring new kids into the group and they're all pointing making jokes
Taught the ropes and left me out, left once I lost fucking hope
Middle school was war zone, man, must've been the hormones, man
Just remember boiling blood and beating in my torso man
People call me names when I walk into class with notes in hand
Rocking long hair and a jacket, looking like a homeless man
Fighting with supposed friends, throwing punches, trashing lunch
Always stuck in arguments, always yell over a bunch
Always just some stupid shit and bystanders would get pulled in
Girls say that I'm rude and ugly, I can't disagree with them
Girls think that I'm into them but they're not even thoughts of mine
I'm just tryna make some friends, but that shit's creepy, cross the line
Never got no explanations, just got insults thrown my way
If it wasn't for my parents, I would throw this phone away
Moved into the boondocks, but I'll never be a Freeman
Get riled up when people speak, I turned into a demon
Push away most everyone because of everything before
Even months along the line, the pasts a thing I can't ignore
Freshman year I'm hanging with my ride or die outsiders
Sophomore year I got a friend who helps me break dividers
Slowly start to open up and make some new connections
Soon enough from my brains depth rise up my imperfections
I'm obsessive, I'm depressive, I'm aggressive, I'm possessive
And I got a clean-up crew of goons to help me fix my messes
But I lose my sense of self, off the deep end, I'm dependent
Then I'm popping sleeping pills until I reach the gates of heaven
Honestly I don't deserve the hills of Mount Olympus
I should be in Abbadon or other pits for awful misfits
'cause somewhere I got selfish and pushed away the ones who cared
Just my stream of consciousness enough to get most people scared
Graduated high school on the brink of damn insanity
Went to UCLA to grow but had to leave my family
Didn't know that meant that we would barely ever talk
Not through text, not on phone, think the doors been locked
Outside, alone, stuck in rain, plus all my friends did the same
And most the people here I can't relate to, just too different brains
Maybe having friends just isn't something meant for me
But the people left say I just need to find the recipe
I've been here for like a decade, guess I don't search hard enough
Guess my struggles aren't shit because you don't know where I'm from
And you had some basic problems so you think that its the same
Choose at 12 to leave your mom and brother then you'll feel some pain
You don't know regrets and doubt and isolation quite like me
Listen to this album and you'll get an abridged summary
This can't scratch the surface I got too much flowing constantly
19 years and going, deaths the only thing that's stopping me
Messaged no one first the other day just as a test
'Bout what I expected, I got 3 people at best
That's family, that's old friends, and that's college people too
Guess they're busy or they hate me as much as I do
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4. |
Talk About
03:42
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Verse 1:
They say these thoughts are temporary, even though they're fucking scary
Had to bury everything since it seemed that no one was caring
Tried to talk about it, but it seems no one would listen
Pushing everyone away, that seemed to be my mission
They say my smile glistens, too bad it's made of fiction
My thoughts are trapped inside a cage and distort mental pictures
My memories are lies, like everything else always seems to be
People leave the second I try saying what they mean to me
Hook:
Everybody got some shit they wanna talk about
But no one else will take the time to stop and hear 'em out
Everybody got shit they don't wanna talk about
But everybody else will pry until they're cracking down
Verse 2:
I think I'm anhedonic nothing seems to bring me joy
Sit with Panasonics trying to slip into a void
Where nothing but the darkness and it's sounds are always haunting me
Have to mute the thoughts in my head that keep going constantly
I can't talk about too much or I'll get sent away
To the torturous Tartarus that they all claim keeps me safe
People ask about my day, I always say I'm tired
Because its honest but it hides the fact I'm drowning in the mire
Hook:
Everybody got some shit they wanna talk about/
But no one else will take the time to stop and hear 'em out/
Everybody got shit they don't wanna talk about/
But everybody else will pry until they're cracking down/
Verse 3:
They say that I'm exaggerating
Feel like the play thing of Satan
Or god, who knows if hes kind?
Fucking with the world and killing his scions
Fire, aether, earth, wind, water
What about darkness Aristotle?
Contents of bottles till I reach the bottom
You act like you've known me since I was a toddler
Even if you did, I would still remain a puzzle/
Even their own kid, they couldn't tell that he was troubled
Subtle hints put everywhere but still they couldn't see it
No comfort with identity or faith in higher beings
Hook:
Everybody got some shit they wanna talk about
But no one else will take the time to stop and hear 'em out
Everybody got shit they don't wanna talk about
But everybody else will pry until they're cracking down
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5. |
Blunt Trauma Chronicle
06:17
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Verse 1:
I see you doing all that smack,you need one across your face
Because I promise that that horse ain't gonna win a race
You need a real heroine to take it's place
Or you'll just fade away, gone without a trace
Snorting so much coke, its like blow your nose
Always rolling up some stuff but ain't no torta rolls
Four milligrams of xan, down it with the lean
Thatll make you lose your head like a guillotine
I'm content with these headphones with the booming bass
Feels like drugs are present in the whole human race
Hell, even I got some prescriptions from the doctor
Mellows me out when I'm anxious like while talking
To some strangers, 'cause that shit can be real fucking rough
Don't overdo it, that shit's dangerous, enough's enough
I used to have insomnia, my brain just wouldn't stop
So I got some pills for it, and I started to pop
I was on prozac,ambien,abilify
Until I took so much I almost died
Overdose until I'm comatose with sedatives
What's going on inside that crazy little head of his?
That's a long story, I say it as a forewarning
Stay away from drugs of all kinds, 'cause they're transforming
You're entire state of mind, just play your favorite tune
And listen to it all, you'll get lost in it soon
Hook:
All these drugs they kill your brain
I swear that no one's safe
Just sing along to your favorite song and love the joy it brings
Peer pressure does crazy things
Makes your thinking hazy
Just sing along to your favorite song and love the joy it brings
Verse 2:
I never smoked back in high school
Never thought that drugs would make me cool
But like last week I got high for the first time
We were smoking up and spitting trash rhymes
Shit was fun, bumping beats off of electronics
Time was moving slow I guess that's why they call it chronic
We went down the street to grab some beef burritos
Carne asada, that shit felt like a dream though
Like my memories feel like imagination
Late afternoon I went down to the bus station
Had a doobie and 2 blunts, felt like I'd been there for days
Had a great time, said goodbye, then i was on my way
Missed a few buses but I made it back on campus
i arrived an hour later than I had first planned it
Smoking on some kill, you should call me dead leaf mantis
But i ain't no mimic, if you think that shit then vanish
If you want some beef with me, i ain't like cattle ranches
More like slaughterhouse, come down on you like avalanches
Viciously slaughter, disregarding Temple Grandin
Come down from my high, and then I'm back to rantin'
Yeah that shit felt good, but i can't get too distracted
Got a budding college life should be careful of my actions
I should be in my prime with good beating my evils
I'm a free agent, independent, drugs could make me peaceful
Hook 2:
All these drugs they kill my brain
But now that feels ok
I sing along to my favorite song while i get stoned
Peer pressure never touched me
I just felt shitty
Now I sing along to my favorite song while i get stoned
Verse 3:
No opiods and no barbiturates
But I'm down for acid tabs and I might try an X
I might do a line of coke for the experience
What the fuck happened to me, i thought i was straightedge
Guess things change when you feel this desperate
And things get harder over time like tetris
So now for my escape, I've been smoking metrics
My boy sell it for the low, 5 bucks for one spliff
Said next time I visit I'm hitting the grav bong
We're gon' bump some bangers, ain't the time for sad songs
But after i come down ill be back to square one
Because life is full of shit and i can't be spared none
Life ain't fair son, that's just how the cookie crumbles
You can eat the crumbs but cant rebuild once it tumbles
So you make the best of things, even when their worse
Even when it feels like your existence is cursed
Hook 3:
All these drugs they kill my brain
They also kill the pain
I sing along to my favorite song while i get stoned/
Take some vodka shots, sip purple drank
Now I sing along to my favorite song while i get stoned
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6. |
Drowning
03:41
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Verse 1:
As I breath I'm drowning, I can't handle these surroundings
But I've been within these depths for years so I'm not even frowning
Count the people I can count on with my two hands
Everybody else with big ass squads or cliques or crews or clans
Souplantation, stay organic, when they see this shit they
panic
Branding and programming, spreads contamination makes them manic
People always clowning me so it's time I go Pennywise
My money sense is driving me to get more than new bentley rides
Hook:
Plenty of fish in the sea, but I'm not a fish/
Drowning till I turn into a bottom-feeder's dish/
I descend, I see the stars, and I make a wish/
Be aquatic, not psychotic, finish with some fins/
Verse 2:
Many ties of mine have fell apart like loose knots
Twenty tries at dying but I ain't tried noose knots
Guess it's for the best because I've got these new plots
Choose a muse and my thoughts are too much for you bots
Bought your way to fame and get paid to be how they want ya
Rotten brains, you feed off others, cause them pain, your
monstrous
Guess dinero is the cause of all Romero's visions
Rest in peace the legend, body dead but soul keeps living
Hook:
Plenty of fish in the sea, but I'm not a fish
Drowning till I turn into a bottom-feeder's dish
I descend, I see the stars, and I make a wish
Be aquatic, not psychotic, finish with some fins
Bridge:
Most are people pleasers, most are snakes and weasels
I'm a vile creature, but I am not either
You've got the means to live well, I barely survive
You naturally thrive, I was born to strive
Verse 3:
Mantis not a shrimp, but I still got this shit snapping
Tantrums from some wimps, I guess I'll get to pimp slapping
Everyone I know who's hurting make me keep on rapping
So I can try and pitch in if some scary ass shit happen
I'm not trying to be icy, I'm just trying to spit blizzards
My craft is wars with stars, guess I'm talking like Darth Sidious
Jedi Mind tricks like I'm Vinnie, but I'm not as peaceful
I will conquer everyone like I'm succeeding Caesar
Bridge:
Most are people pleasers, most are snakes and weasels
I'm a vile creature, but I am not either
You've got the means to live well, I barely survive
You naturally thrive, I was born to strive
Hook:
Plenty of fish in the sea, but I'm not a fish
Drowning till I turn into a bottom-feeder's dish
I descend, I see the stars, and I make a wish
Be aquatic, not psychotic, finish with some fins
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Verse 1:
Climbing out the Catacombs, I'm one of multi millions
Rest remain dead in the dirt, I'm still dealing
With the same feelings, same pain, but still act like I'm
chilling
And I'm pushing through all of the shit so I can get top billing
Pretty fucked up people act like they're lives suck
Cry and cut, but still wanna survive like Macguyver
Feel how gangsters feel when others lie about the
nine tucked
Never felt headed for hell like I do in the line, stuck
On my thoughts constantly, unknown to these wannabes
No soul, hopping from trend to trend like wallabees
I never back out, but take you out back like Old Yeller
Grill you since you just tryna be a Rockefeller
No respect for the craft, say less than Teller
I'm hard liquor, cheesy bitch, your verse like a wine cellar
Like the Count, they insert their canines and they dine on me
Frankenstein's monster, made of others, finds autonomy/
Hook:
But they ain't fucked up like me
In fact, they don't even like me
They ain't fucked up like me
So why the fuck they actin' like they like me?
Verse 2:
I tried to sleep forever with some pills, but I beat meds
I did it to die, never faked shit for street cred
Not faked for concern, I just felt that shit burn
I told people I trust, got disgust in return
Car crash, front of whip smashed, luckily no whiplash
Still fear death, thought I'd finally dismissed that
In the passenger seat, always fear a repeat
Every mile we go, I feel my sanity deplete
All the smiles I show are just to help me cope
All these trials I've known, they're making me lose hope
Even though I try to see them as a chance to grow
Thoughts planted in my head I didn't even mean to sow
I can't help but reap them and it drives me to the Reaper
Only hell freezing over hides them till they can't go deeper
At the end of the blizzard is a beautiful winter
My thoughts buried, only my soul left to enter
Hook:
But they ain't fucked up like me
In fact, they don't even like me
They ain't fucked up like me
So why the fuck they actin' like they like me?
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Verse 1 (Mantis the Miasma):
Said that my passion wouldn't ever get cash
Said give up on it, focus only on class
Said my shits weak but what they know about art?
They ain't care 'bout me, think they got some gouged hearts
Soulless and controlling, tryna push goals on me
Solace and compassion are desires so lofty
Nowadays it feels like I'm just viewed as a tool
Power plays by family, they tell me I'm a fool
Tell me making music would be wasting my gifts
College is the only way to make my life lift
Up from the dirt and make myself feel pleasant
Think a rift forms if I choose not to listen
So I do the crap they ask for, still in the lab
Cooking up the verses, not some book like they ask
They tryna make my vision crooked, so I can't see
What I really wanna do (and) who I really wanna be
Fuck your doubts, if i get clout you'll praise tracks
Took this route, got out of my drought, i blaze wacks
What they lack? They ain't got no heart and wear masks
I'm not talking trout, but they replicas to count cash
What they represent? Nothing, wanna race a 'rari
They're just living marvelous, makes me feel sorry
Fuck my dreams, throw 'em out since they aint' realistic
Should just be a mystic, or go read statistics
Fuck my goals, they want to see all those differed
Shriveled like a raisin in the sun, they'd prefer
Say that you love me, support no matter what
But always push shit on me, say don't trust my gut
People say my songs trash, do something productive
Keep the day job, that shit isn't constructive
Took me months to learn flow, no one could describe it
But over time I got it, I made that shit a science
Ask Azure, helped each other make our flows smooth
Trash twitter rappers shouldn't ever touch a booth
They ain't for the culture, they just out for themselves
So they stay dissing people who're just asking for help
Bridge:
Say we ain't succeeding, so we'll be defeated
When were on a beat, you just say that we're the weakest
Even though we're teens, all the worlds we paint are scenic
All the shit you say doesn't even carry meaning
Hook:
People told me music can't be a career/
I told them all right we'll check back in some years/
When i make a stack, bet theyll walk up in tears/
But i know that shit fake, so its fuck all their cheers/
Fuck my dreams, all I gotta do is get cream/
Fuck my happiness, they said get a good degree/
Just give up on music, I won't ride in limousines/
Get a good career, but it's fuck my self-esteem/
Verse 2:
Someone tell me what these motherfuckers know
Had to grind by myself when they never been alone
So much work I been doing in my home
But a nigga still hating man I'm done with these hoes
Dealing with doubt and this poor ass reception
Take in the hate while I switch up inflection
Spend time on verses but its like a message
Dont see the purpose unless I'mma flex it
Break a beat down and apart like its Brexit
Fuck up my heart you just killing my passion
Say that Im weak cuz I never been savage
Really I'm passive I'm done with this shit
Everyone thinking a nigga should quit
Parents and family stay making jokes
Nobody to trust with the shit that I wrote
I been working on myself and they can never understand
I aint worried bout my health or the motherfucking bands
All of this shit man it came with the plans
I been in the game you should stay in the stands
Working on myself and they can never understand
I ain't worried bout my health or the motherfucking bands
All of this shit man it came with the plans
I been in the game you should stay in the stands, lil bitch
Hook:
People told me music can't be a career/
I told them all right we'll check back in some years/
When i make a stack, bet theyll walk up in tears/
But i know that shit fake, so its fuck all their cheers/
Fuck my dreams, all I gotta do is get cream/
Fuck my happiness, they said get a good degree/
Just give up on music, I won't ride in limousines/
Get a good career, but it's fuck my self-esteem/
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9. |
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Verse 1:
Stop talking to me and try taking some action
Hate your whole life then forget using distractions
You got family, how you act like we ain't there?
Leaving us with strangers you just met at the daycare
I tell you how to fix shit, then you ignore me
Been like this for 24 years, did it to 4 kids
Say you need some help, you beg and implore me
Cave 'cause I know if i don't results will be morbid
Mom, your therapist just acts like a cheerleader
Just says what you want to hear, you always believe her
Builds you up like pyramids, and truths a wrecking ball
You don't try to change, think Earth's at your beck and call
So when things go wrong, everyone else is to blame
Except you, even your kids are bringing you shame
How do you believe your own delusions despite evidence?
All I got from you was loads of pain and mental pestilence
Hook:
Stop talking 'bout your problems less you doin'
somethin' 'bout it/
All i hear is whining, stop bitch, i can live
without it/
You rely on luck, no bucks, just vouchers/
You need me more than I give a fuck about you/
Verse 2:
You sit in your chair everyday and you pray
Yet stopped caring about all your kids along the way
I know that your sick, but you're not paralyzed
You still boss me 'round when there's peril in my eyes
Say that we're a team but I do it all myself/
I'm the one who worked to put awards on the shelf/
I'm the one who spent the hours going insane/
And you never cared until I started to train
Gave up on me 'til i started using my brain
Now you take the credit when you never had the pain
I keep up my grades, social life, and house alone
You sleep while my stepmom's working hospital phones
All you do's relax, yet when I demand respect
Or for you to keep your word, you say keep myself in check
Because you're the dad so authority is certain
Who gives a fuck if my body or my mind are hurting
Hook:
Stop talking 'bout your problems less you doin'
somethin' 'bout it/
All i hear is whining, stop bitch, i can live
without it/
You rely on luck, no bucks, just vouchers/
You need me more than I give a fuck about you/
Verse 3:
You lay around all day always dodging a job search
Everything's ok for as long as you got church
Pray to god he saves you, gives you government money
There's no need to move beyond that long as dollars keep coming
Always bailed out yet take pride in survival skills
Say you live well because that's what the Bible wills
Guess I never bought you food when your money ran out
Never helped you find a roof when payments didn't pan out
I'm not saying you need to be happy with what's happened
But when I'm shocked my body's still taking action
Never take advice from me, throw out all my tactics
In a fraction of max time you've run out of rations
Why deny my efforts and the aid that they'd bring?
Who's that benefit? How is that helping things?
Seems like my voice goes unheard if it differs
From what they want to hear, well then what about this verse?
Hook:
Stop talking 'bout your problems less you doin'
somethin' 'bout it/
All i hear is whining, stop bitch, i can live
without it/
You rely on luck, no bucks, just vouchers/
You need me more than I give a fuck about you/
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Verse 1(Mantis the Miasma):
We'll be bumping VANTABLACK while you be snorting Vanna White
Satan taking wheels, make my fortunes look so bright
Like blue flames, he whispers in the dark like Luke James
Driving thoughts of suicide into my screwed brain
A few loose, so my slot machines get triple sixes
When the sevens should be present, yes my slot head needs some fixes
I'm immature, I'm nescient, but I've never been omniscient
I'm throwing heads in wishing wells but I'm hardly well-wishing
I do it for myself just to boost my poor chances
I'm not tryna strike oil, I'm just tryna score glances
Make all the ones who doubted look at me and feel foolish
While I'm still in the miasma feeling half-dead and ghoulish
My minds slipping, need repairs still to get a fit head
Been hard since i ate up all the bullshit that that bitch fed
Most friends imaginary or just distant symphonies
So they never were to start with or they've turned to memories
I got Azure and Gold Fleece, I rep UCLA now
Fakes lie 'bout me for the gold like Aaron's tribe and their cow
And I feel blue inside but my minds gold and gleemin'
I'm opposite of Moses, he met God, I met my demons
He climbed up to Sinai I went down to circle nine
With no poet as a guide and nowhere for me to hide
Now I'm back and like always ignore waves, I just follow signs
Work for cosigns, write lines by my circle, that's a tangent rhyme
I'm more than a bard, I'm a martyr for the artistry
I got lead in my arteries like dudes who trained in armories
It's pumping to my brain, but luckily it's not harming me
I'm swarming notepads with it like some insects when you're gardening
Pardon me, my insensitivity's no anomaly
I've been this way for years, this is not some sudden toppling
Trying to work my way to number one like life's monopoly
And doppelgangers heads hangin' in shame cause they ain't stoppin' me
Verse 2:
Niggas talking nonsense, I swear its pantomime
Talking bout our level, homie we are not alike
I'm never stupid flexing, I'm busy teaching lessons
You should call a reverend I'm a demon to your brethren
I never had the ice man my neck was never cold
Just had the dog tag, I could give your girl a bone
And when she all alone she hit me on my mobile phone
I said delete the message, TMZ be stalking hoes
I'm all about the crew, never catch me racing tho
my heart was vantablack, dark as fucking Santa coal
I'm creeping with the monsters steady running in your home
rhymes sick as cancer when they running out your dome
2015 I was feeling dead inside
2016 I was barely still alive
2017 a nigga making all the strides
2018 BIG is back in town
You want some beef I got my squad when we come around
Thugging out your life, put digits to your underground
Its all headshots, best believe I want the crown
We leaving bodies everywhere like its a lost and found
We dont want the green, Mantis got us covered
Fleece got the gold plated chopper get to ducking
FITH got the trax, run the game and cause some trouble
I just want the bag, I can settle for a duffle
Bridge:
NeScience is bliss, Nescience is bliss
Bliss gang coming up and when we shine it can't be missed
NeScience is bliss, NeScience is bliss
Azure, The Miasma, Zaki, Gold Fleece, and Fith
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Nineteen99
05:10
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Intro
Year of our lord, 1999
Year of his foe, 6661
Verse 1:
Worth of my birth is less than a candy purchase
Dearth of the mirth, joys been absent since a person
When I was delivered, I was crying and shivering
Doctors severed that cord then I started my villainy
My sibling never made it, they were sent to River Styx
Or some other place of pain made by sermon-givers tricks
I know that Ill be burning when my shell of meat's in casket
Why not light myself right now to prep for hellish heat and maggots
Just need a lighter and some gas, worst case I'll use absinthe/
Take a bath in it, and if the BIC dies, turn to matches
Boxing matches between voxes clashing hard inside my nous
Telling me to get my neck caressed so gently by a noose
I'm doing some dumb shit to forget my issues
Wish that you could understand all that I've been through
When Lucifer needs food and puts you on his menu
Hope it brings light to my life when it fucking hits you
Hook:
Everybody's telling me "happy birthday!"
I don't understand, what is there to celebrate?
Nineteen years full of misery and pain
Got cold veins, so I'm fine dying in vain
Verse 2:
I'm a portrait of George Orwell made by Henri Edmond Cross
Dotty kamikaze tryna fight against big brother boss
I'm forming a farm of controversial concepts
('ll go dormant eternal by murderous princeps/
Shatter my grey matter, splatter like a Jackson Pollock
My molecules live off of platters made for alcoholics
Kabbalah thoughts have hid within me since I first bit challah
But I get no signals when I'm calling out to Allah
I'll hit 21 to drink myself to death lawfully
And smoke some cigarettes to make myself cough awfully
End up in a coffin carried by the pallbearers
The men in my lineage who never appalled or scared parents
Didn't pound on walls or wanna throw fists at all mirrors
Didn't lose sleep every night because dreams displayed fears
Not quite nightmares just regrets and inescapable mistakes
Slept 4 hours max a night, how much more of this can i take?
Hook:
Everybody's telling me "happy birthday!"
I don't understand, what is there to celebrate?
Nineteen years full of misery and pain
Got cold veins, so I'm fine dying in vain
Verse 3:
So i take some ambiens to hide from being a cambion
My rampant panicked thoughts wont stop, the pains becoming ambient
So I take a whole pill bottle, hoping things will end
And send myself to death full throttle, nearly finding zen
When I wake up in the hospital, my stomach freshly pumped
Check my texts, respond like nothings wrong, whole time i was just slumped
Ride the cop car to a mental hospital, get my shit taken
Then for 3 days minimum, gotta be evaluated
So I'm patiently waiting, living as a mental patient
Cant use pencils, so use crayons to write shit in isolation
Scheduled meals, small TV, one pop radio station
Every hour feels like a year but there's no escapin'
Family visits, they're surprised, I don't see why
I've dropped a lot of signs that i thought of suicide
When I finally get out, only 3 friends who were worried
To this day I still wish that i would've just been buried
Hook:
Everybody's telling me "happy birthday!"
I don't understand, what is there to celebrate?
Nineteen years full of misery and pain
Got cold veins, so I'm fine dying in vain
Outro 1:
This is dedicated to my grandma, Lupe Lopez
Rest in peace 1927-2018
Rest in peace to my dog Barkley, he died last April.
The greatest pretty old canine that I've ever seen
Dedicated to my grandpa Henry Vera Lopez
You're missed Enrique
Dedicated to Sandra Bernards. I hope you're soul's well
I hope you're all watching over me
Outro 2:
Go,go,go,go
Go mantis, it's your birthday
You should pop a xanax 'cause it's your birthday
Don't look quite as bland, because it's your birthday
But no one really gives a fuck that today's your birthday
Outro 3:
Oh three one four/
One nine nine nine/
To twenty seventeen/
Nineteen long years/
Came out of the womb/
Worth of my birth/
Soon to reach the tomb/
Worth of my birth/
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Mantis The Miasma California
A musical artist who explores the many themes of life and death. Mantises are often depicted at the intersection of this transition. UCLA 2021.
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